Marvin Gaye & Tammi Terrell - If This World Were Mine (by MyOldiesButGoodies)
the stand
so i’ll stand
with arms high and heart abadoned
in awe of the one who gave it all
ill stand
my soul Lord to you surrendered
all I am is Yours
Im starting this year right.I lift up everything to you God.I have faith in your plan.You answer my prayers for a reason.You neglect some to answer more of my pleas.I will try to live up to your promise.To change completely won’t be easy.Let’s see what happens this week.You have been with me all the time. :)
Hearts!
Bobby Tinsley Say Goodbye (by bobbytinsley)
Missing you-Bobby Tinsley (by choka2)
Ive never thought about you so much till now.I can’t believe a simple chat with you could bring back so much memories.Im here back to where I was…missing you.So many things going through my head its driving me nuts.I keep counting the days till this is really over.I know you’re happy now and it still breaks my heart that I can’t be with you anymore.So much has happened with the years spent with you.It might be easy for you but I kind of hold on to those things.You don’t know how much I try to let this pass.There are just random days I can’t handle.Im surprised my tears are still falling for the same reasons.Sleepless nights are gone and so are the nights of crying all the time.I guess in some random days it all piles up when you suddenly pop up in my head or when we talk.I wish for so many things we or I could have done to make things ok.Its so useless as this point now.I know it,it’s just hard getting used to it I guess.This blog is helping me a lot.Thank God.Im tired of explaining to people and people of asking the same thing over and over again.It just reminds me of so much shit that went down.There are times I wish I’ve never even met you.But what would I be now or what would have happened if we didn’t.This is just one of those days/nights.If you only knew.If you knew I don’t think it will even matter anymore.You’re happy.I should be too.
Tadhana-Up Dharma Down (by sweetiehazeeyy)
TADHANA
would be the perfect place in each others lives
where your hand fits perfectly through the gaps of mine
when two hearts beat in perfect rhythm
when we make a choice that this thing is ours forever
lets claim all the coming tomorrows my love
a letter to self
Merry Christmas everyone!Let this day remind us that there is someone greater than us.Tonight,we are given His one and only son to save us all.Christ is a symbol of great hope,love and forgiveness.Let us try to share this with the people who is going through rough times,our loved ones and most especially to some people who have hurt us.This day should be a day of worship and praise.We must remember to thank Him for all the wonderful things He has given us,good or bad.
A few minutes before I started this blog,I wrote a letter to myself.I’ve never wrote a letter to myself before because I find it silly.It is kind of silly right?Haha :) I was given a notebook by one of my bosses at work.Not that they know I write (since I know I’m very bad with writing my thoughts down properly),nor do they know that I blog.I called my notebook “little girl”.A little girl reminds me of innocence.Like my notebook,it’s clean,it doesn’t know anything yet,no secrets shared…Tonight I decided to write my first entry in little girl.I wrote a letter to myself reminding me of God’s love and challenge,life,strength and hope.I promised myself that I won’t let her down anymore and that I should trust myself more.We often times forget about these things when we are too busy with other things and other people.We get too excited of temporary happiness that we sometimes overlook the basics.We are the only ones we can truly trust.We must always have love for ourselves even when were loving someone.My little girl notebook will be filled with letters to myself from now on.Just to keep things on track.No more re-lapses.Just moving forward.I have to keep on chasing my dreams no matter what :) I will make more mistakes coz I’m not afraid to take risks.I will learn more things coz I will fall once again and get hurt.I will live again coz I am stronger now.Have faith in me.I won’t let you down again.
Merry Christmas again :) Cheers!Hearts!Till I blog again <3
kanye west everything i am (by mixfiend718)
my feel good song of the moment :) every morning and before i sleep <3
late night at the office >.<
I’ll be on my way to pick my baby spam in a bit.Yey! :) Holidays with my first born.Hahaha :) I don’t know if its a good thing or bad thing that I’ll be seeing my ex too.No relapse please.Can’t go back to that shit no more.One thing too…he texted…”I’ll be going home with Eunice”,the new girl.In my head I’m like “No,shit…forreal?” but hey what’s the worst that could happen?I just replied “Oh,introduce her then.” Strength or weakness?I’ll sure find out later.The more I expose myself to pain the more I become stronger.This is what’s happening and I really must face it.I have been struggling with my emotions but what’s another night of crying?Plus I have Spam later.My cries are a way to release certain feelings inside.It’s only been a few months,I’m human,let me deal with this.I have loved and lost,but I have loved more importantly.Now, I am getting back up.Chasing my dreams and recreating myself.I will be stronger and better (oooh Kanye!).
MY EX JUST CALLED…
Getting back to my blogging fever…Love always defies the odds of truth and even reality.This is what I believe in.Maybe that’s why i never get tired nor even scared to fall in love.It’s such a good feeling.Breakups may be bad,but hey…it’s just like a kid getting hurt from falling a bike,the kids cries for awhile then viola!the kid rides the bike again.
Oh love,we have such a love-hate relationship.You bring me up so high at times and then you make me kiss the ground…just like that.I never get tired of you though.I wonder why?Hahaha :) You sometimes save me from myself and yet you make me want to just end life at times.Pathetic to even think of ending this life,trust me,I’ve thought of it but I can’t make myself do it. Hosie knows she’s strong.Inside, though things might be crumbling at times,when I look back at all the challenges I’ve gone through…this ain’t nothing.I’ve gone through hell and maybe worst and yet Im still here.Let’s embrace all the beautiful and the ugly.We won’t appreciate the beautiful things if we don’t accept the bad things right?
Let’s share love in this season of giving and hope.The coming year will bring hope for a new day.Keep the faith!Let it be your strength.
Till I blog again.Hearts!
Demi Lovato - Skyscraper (by DemiLovatoVEVO)
ill watch you disappear
office lovin’ bloggin’ yeah
I am in front of my first ever encounter with a MacBook.I already have before but I look stupid using one.It has been a love hate relationship with this laptop because I’ve always been an HP user.I love HP,especially their Beats edition laptop which my sister has (not bragging, just saying).But oh,like lightning and cupid’s arrow,it struck me by surprise…I am in love with you my office MacBook :) Like woah.I can’t even explain how much.I have never been in love with anything material all my life except maybe my feeding bottle when I was a baby.
Since I actually have a lot of time in my hands right now because I am actually done with what they want me to do,I shall blog…
Today I’ve been playing Christina Perri’s A Thousand Years over and over again.Even when I was doing my work,the song was just constantly playing in the background.I mean,its still playing as I am blogging!Ha!This song just stirs so much emotions.Im not quite sure if all Im feeling is just longing or it’s because I have so much love in me.Could be both for all I care.Enough of this,I can’t really emote here at the office.Why should I anyway? :) I mean I acknowledge what I feel inside.I know coz I feel it.Im embracing the pain and the happy moments,no matter how small or big.No more suppressing :) Strength is me.I am strong.My heart might break a thousand times more but I will continue to stand up and love over and over again.Love is love.I want it and I love every part and episode of it.
Bye!Till I blog again!Hearts! :)
